Mike (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} iaminyourhead) wrote,@ 2008-04-06 21:20:00 |
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The 45th Hour
Nearly 45 hours since I last had a smoke. The first three days are supposed to be the hardest. If that's the case, then I'm golden.
I went into this quit with knowledge that none had offered to me prior. See, it turns out that one of the many effects nicotine has is to halve the effectiveness of caffiene. Someone like me, who tends to be a heavy coffee drinker, is apt to spend his first several days of not smoking in the midsts of a caffiene overdose, as well as nicotine withdrawal. It makes the withdrawal seem a hell of a lot worse, it turns out.
Which isn't to say this has been a cake-walk thus far. Every time Im waiting for something I end up wanting a smoke. Not a lot, just, like, I think to myself "Oh, I should have a smoke." Then I laugh a little, because that's not something I do anymore. Also, there've been two or three stressful moments since I stopped, which have made me damned near irrational. S'cool, though. I didn't snap, or kill anyone, or even really handle things badly, I think.
I've been having a hard time concentrating, as well as keeping still, also, yesterday I had a lot of odd non-cigarette cravings. I desparately wanted potato chips, for instance.
What I think has really made the difference for me thus far has been both the caffiene knowledge, and the way I've walked into it. I didn't get rid of my tobacco, for instance. It's sitting right here. And I haven't told myself that I can't have it. If I really want to have a cigarrette, I will. I've just decided I don't want to.
Nearly 45 hours since I last had a smoke. The first three days are supposed to be the hardest. If that's the case, then I'm golden.
I went into this quit with knowledge that none had offered to me prior. See, it turns out that one of the many effects nicotine has is to halve the effectiveness of caffiene. Someone like me, who tends to be a heavy coffee drinker, is apt to spend his first several days of not smoking in the midsts of a caffiene overdose, as well as nicotine withdrawal. It makes the withdrawal seem a hell of a lot worse, it turns out.
Which isn't to say this has been a cake-walk thus far. Every time Im waiting for something I end up wanting a smoke. Not a lot, just, like, I think to myself "Oh, I should have a smoke." Then I laugh a little, because that's not something I do anymore. Also, there've been two or three stressful moments since I stopped, which have made me damned near irrational. S'cool, though. I didn't snap, or kill anyone, or even really handle things badly, I think.
I've been having a hard time concentrating, as well as keeping still, also, yesterday I had a lot of odd non-cigarette cravings. I desparately wanted potato chips, for instance.
What I think has really made the difference for me thus far has been both the caffiene knowledge, and the way I've walked into it. I didn't get rid of my tobacco, for instance. It's sitting right here. And I haven't told myself that I can't have it. If I really want to have a cigarrette, I will. I've just decided I don't want to.
